Sunday, June 29, 2008
Im dying under this roof of mine. I feel intimidated and "stupidyfied" by my dear mother. She just don't listen to whatever i say and the feeling isnt nice at all. She dont trust us and now im starting to get the odd feeling that she only cares about this house and her but not me, but i cant say that because she do care about me sometimes. I am confused. What the heck now. I am tired with this weird character of hers. Sometimes people says that the child will somehow subconsciously take after the parent's personality, but i do not want to be like her and i hope im not like her. I want to love my child next time and do all the lovey dovey stuff for my child but not be over-protective. I want to buy my kids birthday presents, christmas presents, children' day present or even new year's day present. I want to be there to watch my kid have their competition and collect their trophy and not want them to go home straight away if they do not want to. I want to be able to connect with my child and be like a friend to my child but not somebody of a superior status. I dont wanna be her, nothing like her at all.
